“life will be better in spring”

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What the hell is wrong with me!?!
For a minute, i don't want to play the competition and the very next minute i want to play.


Reasons to play :
1) My last year to play in junior competitions
2) Eeryone is forcing me to play
3) Paid for the competition already
4) My home course and it's near
5) Feeling confident (it always ends up playing badly)
6) Catch up with golf pals
7) My mom and sis wants me to play
8) I'll be wasting a spot for which it could be someone elses
9) Playing with new players whom i never played before
10)Will be recored in my school record
11)Get tanned

Reasons not to play :
1) EXAMS!
2) Didn't really train for the past 3 weeks
3) Need to go school(optional, but i wanna go)
4) Mostly likely i won't to able to study after competition
5) Haven't touch my Geo yet
6) It's not a really big competition
7) It's late now, 1.15, i'll only have about 5 hours of sleep before i wake up for warm ups if i play
8) Will be distracted if i play lousy
9) Don't think i'll perform yet feeling confident about it

I am so freaking fickled minded. By the above comparism, it clearly tells me that i should really play tomorrow, but i can't, already too late. My mom is sleeping soundly in her bed. If i wake her up and tell her that now, she is going to smack me.haha.

However, i feel lost and wasted a chance for me to gain experience if i don't go. There is something in me that is telling me to just go and play! Yet at the same time, there is something holding me back.

I HATE THIS !!!!
ARGH..JC life..Knew this was coming..

Ohwell, on the positive side of mind, try to do well for terms( Hopefully ).
There is always other comepetitons.
More time to work on weakness before the next competition comes.
SBGC closing!Woot!
ACS(BR) CARNIVAL!!!! Those who wanna go, inform me!! I help u guys get coupons(Might be able to get free coupons).
HAVE to watch "Fantastic 4:Rise of Silver Surfer", "Transformers(soon)" and "Harry Porter(soon)"
Rest for minor injury.
Get handicap back down to 6.

Suddenly my head is spinning around in ovals

Time to get down to do serious damage